Low hopes, High expectations

I think about these two phrases and how they have completely swapped for me, the other day my mother and I went shopping for clothes, and right away I went straight for the XXXL/XXL sized clothes. I tried on clothes and I was thinking to myself while I was looking into the mirror, and man let me tell you, I always wondered what I would look like if I were skinnier and or more muscular just like everyone else that is on any Media source, whether it be on the television or a magazine. I suddenly realized that when I quit caring about what others thought about me and the way I look, it all just happened for me, I still cannot believe that I look the way that I do to others, because, deep down I still feel as if I didn’t change at all, but when I see a recent picture or when I try on old clothes, I am shocked every time. I look in the mirror and I still see me, but when others that haven’t seen same old me, they freak out and I’m reminded everyday that I am a completely new Cody, and that my ex (the old Cody) is still in Pennsylvania. Bottom line is if you quit caring about what others think and say and just live life the best you can and have fun, things will happen for you with out you even realizing it as it has for me.